too much of a reason!

since the time i remember........i've always seek refuge in reasons........n' i still remember how i got irritated when i behaved in ways when i was far from it.......i felt as if i had no right to be someone with no reasons......but as of now........when i look at the things that start hittin on me.......i got to realize that ........somehow.......things are with too much of a reason.......a bit too meaningful.........even when somone talks to me........even when it seems they like me.......at the end of the day.......somehow i realize again........that its not me that they like........its actually the reason within me that they like n' they come to meet that reason........yeah i know........that can't be so bad.......but sometimes.......you know sometimes......you feel what about the person within.........who seek others............who needs others............who want to stay in some solitude but always wants someone to find him in his solitude...........i just wonder.........if one fine morning........suddenly someone erases all those reasons which are engraved within ****.........what would be the story like..........maybe the story would be more bitter.... i guess all these reasons are one pleasant evil.........which i always wanna erase.........but know that so well.........that once i remove them..............there ain't be no existence for me...........even though.........this ain't my definition of existence........but i guess thats alright!

Told you once about your friends and neighbours
They were always seeking but they'll never find it
It's alright,yes it's alright
Where to go and where to see
It's always been this way and it can never be
It's alright,yes it's alright
Give it all and ask no return
And very soon you'll see and you'll begin to learn
That's it's alright,yes it's alright
Don't you know that it's so good for you
You can be making love and see it all go through
But it's alright,yes it's alright --- Black Sabbath