n' i wish if only these feelings were makin' me happy only if they could have.. maybe then.. i could have written words with conjuncted grammar n' tell everyone the state or the lack of it i'm through everytime n' again.. but it's life i know... n' like everytime.. it's large. but i know i'm surrounded.. n' i can breathe when i know i've drowned. n' it's the darkness which i can see now which is beautiful more than the light... which reminds me to forget all the eclipses which have clouded maybe more than me... n' shall i be able to believe when i tend to... that after a lifetime of turnin'... it's magical to be the rock without the roll!
- D'yer Mak'er
- “...drifting to the streets of no destination was my eternal passtime... n' then comes the moment of gettin' caught in the swamps of memory... followed by hurried motion of arms n' legs. suffocatin' in the depths of past again n' again. all of these had a custom of layin' myself down in the tracks of reality.. n' then' would come the train of life... tearin' n' shatterin' every part of me. to still carry myself all torn n' withered n' broken was undoubtedly the worst part.”
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n' i wish if only these feelings were makin' me happy only if they could have.. maybe then..
Before going any further, can I ask what are those feelings that are making you feel not happy. I cannot make it go otherwise... for that is the curse… but they say sharing makes the burden a bit lighter…
i could have written words with conjuncted grammar n' tell everyone the state or the lack of it i'm through everytime n' again..
But you do write words with conjuncted grammar ( whatever it may be, I would not know ) and you do express yourself fully well your state or 'the lack ot it' as may be the case.
which reminds me to forget all the eclipses which have clouded maybe more than me.
"sometimes she goes mad, we all go mad sometimes"
--- Pshycho
Yes, the terrible thing about eclipses is that it affects a wide area, and there are many beliefs associated with it. Metaphorically.
n' shall i be able to believe when i tend to...
Mornie Utulie ( Darkness has fallen )
Believe and you will find your way.
Mornie Alantie ( Darkness has come )
A promise lives withing you.
--- ost LoTR-FoTR
that after a lifetime of turnin'... it's magical to be the rock without the roll!
Have I not always maintain that sometimes we just need to make the world go on without us, and layback to find time for ourselves? So why don’t you put your caravan down and rest for some time?
You may be alluding to the adage that a rolling stone gathers no moss. Maybe it does, maybe it does not, why don’t we leave it to others and just be what we want to be with ourselves? In the pursuit of happiness we forget how to be contend with ourselves.
Oh… and you do use an alarming number of single inverted commas ’ .
dearest johney,
..first of all.. i must say this. i mean you do read me a lot.. n' thank you for that... second of all... it might be just so that i write so much between the lines.. n' people who know me are so used to it.. at times... they just don't find what is actually quite in the open!!!! i think i'll keep silent!!!
unaccommodatingly yours
d'yer mak'er
Sometimes I do not get you at all, whether between the lines or things that are quite in the open or naked obviousness.
Maybe you are trying to say you do not want me here. Sometimes I am so obtuse. You must forgive me, but not many have sharp wits as you have.
You must forgive me if I were intruding. If it were of any consolation to you, I must say that I were not in the least aware that I were making you uncomfortable.
Yours Unwittingly
J
dearest johney,
i think you're right.. you do not get me at all.. n' you still didn't. sigh!. wish had it been the other way..
un-explainingly yours,
d'yer mak'er
It seems you are in love with someone. People in love are usually hard to understand.
wish had it been the other way..
It can still be the other way. Please tell me. I want to know. I am trying to understand but you are not giving me a chance to.
Yours Pleadingly
J
dearest johney
People in love are usually hard to understand.
..ahem!.. no comments.. but i like such statements. just as a post script statement.. if the statement reflected truth vice versa as well.. it'd have meant i've been in love right from the time i was born!!
Please tell me.
.. i'm not that hard to be understood.. it's just that i'm a bit easier to be misunderstood!!!
Before going any further, can I ask what are those feelings that are making you feel not happy.
...take a look at the labels of this post.. n' i think clarification will talk to you thereby.
elucidatingly yours,
d'yer mak'er
Merci!
i'm not that hard to be understood.. it's just that i'm a bit easier to be misunderstood!!!
Is there a difference between the two? Maybe in some intrinsic level they are connected.
...take a look at the labels of this post.. n' i think clarification will talk to you thereby.
No it didn’t. “Dazed but not Confused”. That explains that some confusing thing has occurred but you are not confused but rather dazed, you understood but you are stunned with the matter.
What I do not understand is what was the matter that was suppose to confuse you but failed in its objective and rather achieved in hardy task of leaving you dazed. You reminded me of something a friend of mine wrote on his blog. “About me :As much as I try to explain, it would still be me.”
Merci!
..laughin' aloud... louder than loud!!
“Dazed but not Confused”
...oops!.. you just missed out... that too because of a technicality. you reviewed the "title".. i mentioned "labels".
You reminded me of something a friend of mine wrote on his blog
...is that friend of yours is Manish... i wonder why i don't have friends like him!!!
p.s. but remember.. .. i'm still not that hard to be understood.. it's just that i'm a bit easier to be misunderstood!!!
it's just that i'm a bit easier to be misunderstood!!!
A very convenient way to cover one’s tract. Even on the occasion that you are understood in a way, which you do not want to, then it gives you the excuse to alter your meaning.
Alright, now that we have come to this, it is time I go into the mood of the subjunctive and conditional and analyse the various ranges of alternatives leading to un-exhaustive possibilities. You may ask what I have with me, and I say Valour first needs courage and then a weapon; the post would be my courage and the Labels, my weapon.
Let me move forward with unrestrained zeal then…
n' i wish if only these feelings were makin' me happy only if they could have with these sentence as my courage and the Label word ‘Confessional’ as my weapon, I shall charge with these: With the empathic ability of mine, I shall channel forth the feelings that you have in you into myself and will see what it is and how it is.
Hmmm…. Do I sense a feeling of loneliness? Unbelonging? Unloved? It is a compound adjective, formed by prefixing ‘un’ to a noun…or a verb… it shows you do not want to be in the stream, a sense of not belonging. You have the ability to, but you chose not to; either due to shyness or diffidence.
Label: You..Just You
This label maybe a hint of saying you have loved someone and a confusing feeling have come up within you and you want to share it here.
Or it may mean this post was meant for my eyes only, and that it is a confession about the confusing feeling you have regarding something, I would not go far being egotistical.
i could have written words with conjuncted grammar n' tell everyone the state or the lack of it i'm through everytime n' again..
I see that you do not want to reveal what you are really feeling by putting in between the lines, but you are writing this so that means only a select few is suppose to understand…. Here I shall again use the weapon “You… only You”. Am I the only one who was supposed to understand this? If that is the case I am failing miserably.
n' i can breathe when i know i've drowned. n' it's the darkness which i can see now which is beautiful more than the light
Weapon: Confession
People usually drown when one falls in love. And engulfs in darkness when one do not know what to do for that love. Are you telling me that you have loved and do not know what to do with it? Are you trying to tell that you are afraid of going through that path again?
n' shall i be able to believe when i tend to... that after a lifetime of turnin'... it's magical to be the rock without the roll!
Weapon: Euphoric? Or Hesitant?
Addressed to self. You are telling yourself to believe what you want to believe, but you still don’t want to do that either. Either to roll or not. To be a rock, you know how, but shall you roll as people says you it is as should be or should you just not roll, doing what you really want. It all depends on your priority. Do you love yourself or do you want to look good in front of those that adores you? It is a tough choice, and I cannot help you making that choice. For only in the doing of your own task you are answerable.
You do realize that you are a master of masquerade, don’t you, always behind the nearest shadow. The feeling of being present but never there seen.
And if with both strength and weapon as my valour I failed to prevail in the battle, then I concede to your mercy.
yours subjunctively
J
Loveliest of trees the cherry now
Is hung with bloom along the bough
And stands about the woodland ride
Wearing white for Eastertide.
Now, of my threescore years and ten,
Twenty will not come again
And take from seventy springs a score,
It only leaves me fifty more.
And since to look at things in bloom
Fifty springs are little room,
About the woodlands I will go
To see the cherry hung with snow.
- A E Housman
He writes so plainly, and the phrases are quite down to earth, yet people try to read between the lines…
“Wearing white for Eastertide”
People tend to take it in a metaphoric form. The line merely represents the time the lad noticed the cherry bloom and has nothing to do with the happy festival, or weddings (gasp!)
The same happens in a different context in this line
“To see the cherry hung with snow”
It may seem to hint to an allegory about the end of things, about winter ending the beauty of the cherry, or a sense of carpe diem or some such things. But the poet never intended any other meaning then, that he want to see the cherry tree laden with snow in winters, which would be equally beautiful like the cherry bloom in springs!
the words are of the writer till they're dragged onto the paper.. n' once it's imprinted on it.. it loses its ownership. that's the beauty of words.. it belongs to nobody n' it belongs to everybody... n' so it means nothin' .... n' it means everythin'...
Ah, that is where there is a confusion. The matter should be understood in the only way the writer intends to be understood and should not be in any other way. Only in that way can we fully appreciate the matter.
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