dear lies n' tears

it's been really ages since i've been justifyin' you... all of their lies n' all of my tears. somehow i've always end up in convincin' myself that i'm right... when i already know i'm so not. nothin' much have changed... though it means a lot of things did to make this feel. n' the lies keep on pourin'... maybe randomly. some of them don't even know that they're lyin'. n' even though my disrimination works well... i fail to ignore them.

recently i was lyin' in my bed... mostly cryin' in the dark.... talkin' to m. it seems there're just two options. don't grab the past n' move ahead n' walk for a while n' end up facin' all the lies again n' start cryin' in the dark. the other.... don't do anythin'... stay where everyone left you.... n' cry in the dark. how i wished there was another option. but i know there's none.

i received almost a summon a few days back. n' i wonder why i responded but i did. although it was pathetic... but i still felt good. just felt got hold of me again.. which ofcourse was pathetic.

n' mostly i'm lovin' this tiredness. way too much of tiredness....weariness... sleepiness. oh how much i had missed them n' how much i've longed for 'em.

pathetically yours,
.....