and so the resurrection begins!!

now i feel that its beginnin...........not because i've learnt quite a few lessons to form my final package of experiences.....but i guess......i've unlearnt all what i've learnt......n' thats the only reason i believe its startin to happen....for it took quite an effort to unlearn all those experiences.......where i've got nothin or anything....... but only void........void not before a rush........but void after it!......n' i feel hesitant not... to say that i'm different.....not because someone else told me this......but i feel i'm different because i can very distinctly distinguish myself from most of them........for i know how they must have felt all the loneliness n' pain before they finally had to scream......not like most of them who can only tell the screamers to shut up......for i know to see all the tears n' agony behind all those efforts to laugh n' make others laugh.........behind every said word........there's a lot more chemistry that goes on...... which somehow always remains unsaid.......behind every ugly face......there's a much beautiful heart......n' yes it's not at all necessary that every beautiful face has no scars at all in their hearts.......n' that there's a great satisfaction even in losin somethin or someone....which is far better than a million victories!.....that it is not all necessary that every wound gives you pain.....but sometimes you can really have some great pleasure in those pains.....for you never felt something so close before but the pain......that its not important that you love yourself because everyone does that.....but you do so for someone else loves you.......its more important that you forgive yourself first than to forgive others.......for its the most difficult task to live when you don't forgive yourself.......that you make sure that you don't waste much of your time to wipe the tears that actually flow.......for in doin so....you'll lose the time which you can use to wipe those tears that are not actually comin!........that you can really achieve more than happiness in the effort to makin someone else happy rather than tryin to make yourself happy for it won't last long!........that there's a lot of sense in being crazy.....you might be all alone in some one way track.....but you can't still really deny the joy that you're still riding the road n' movin on.....and that its more important just to know that there exist reasons behind everythin.......than to actually know what those reasons are!

Every time that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face getting clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dusk to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

I know nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life's in books' written pages
Lived and learned from fools and from sages
You know it's true
All these things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away

Dream on, dream on, dream on
Dream until your dreams come true                        -----------Aerosmith