how many lies do i've to keep on tellin to myself? n' why?...only because those loads of lies sound better....i still remember a few days back when i said this to myself... "i've got no regrets"...maybe only because i wanted to sound like the prostitute in the "turn the page" video...or when i said..."i'm not gonna say sorry to myself no more".....only because i liked it when "Will" said that!....but how long will i be carryin them huh!....the last 23 years were just like a book with unthrilled cold pages of defeat, submission n' loss....n' still i say i've got no regrets....how come?....n' plus the story is definitely not endin here...knowin this fact so well too!
sometimes i feel the world is such a biased one....they tell us...."Don't look back...look straight ahead".....but what does that mean to a blind man!.....sometimes i felt sad for the ones who had to make some big compromises until i realized that there exist people who had got nothin left to compromise!...i'm not too sure whether i'm sick of these lies n' myths all around or i'm tired of it....whether i'm sick of this life of pretendin unrealities or i'm tired of it....whether i'm sick of being misunderstood....or i'm tired of it!.....whether i'm sick of lookin at the moon anymore...or i'm tired of it!
sometimes the journey seems so lonesome n' long that your start hopin for its end...no matter you had reached the destination or not....i still don't realize or rather fail to understand if my dreams were that big....maybe i didn't protect those dreams very well!
last 23 years had showed me much...but i learnt the least but unlearnt the most!...last 23 years had given me much....but i achieved the least but lost the most!....really sick n' tired of livin this unbalanced life of defeat ' glory....sick n' tired of pretendin.....when now i get really afraid when i'm in a good mood for i somehow get the feelin that its not gonna last long!
i guess i had reached a point where i'm too sick of explainin other what this "me" really means.....n' too tired of understandin anyone else!
"You don't really care about broken dreams.....when your hopes are already broken!"
sometimes i feel the world is such a biased one....they tell us...."Don't look back...look straight ahead".....but what does that mean to a blind man!.....sometimes i felt sad for the ones who had to make some big compromises until i realized that there exist people who had got nothin left to compromise!...i'm not too sure whether i'm sick of these lies n' myths all around or i'm tired of it....whether i'm sick of this life of pretendin unrealities or i'm tired of it....whether i'm sick of being misunderstood....or i'm tired of it!.....whether i'm sick of lookin at the moon anymore...or i'm tired of it!
sometimes the journey seems so lonesome n' long that your start hopin for its end...no matter you had reached the destination or not....i still don't realize or rather fail to understand if my dreams were that big....maybe i didn't protect those dreams very well!
last 23 years had showed me much...but i learnt the least but unlearnt the most!...last 23 years had given me much....but i achieved the least but lost the most!....really sick n' tired of livin this unbalanced life of defeat ' glory....sick n' tired of pretendin.....when now i get really afraid when i'm in a good mood for i somehow get the feelin that its not gonna last long!
i guess i had reached a point where i'm too sick of explainin other what this "me" really means.....n' too tired of understandin anyone else!
"You don't really care about broken dreams.....when your hopes are already broken!"
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Well dude, everybody has a darker side within. We know we have guilts, defeats & lots more......but we try to hide it. Try to cover it with fake hapiness. Its good that ur riting it, because in a way ur lettin it out. And that the best way to be at peace. But i guess as a chnage of mood u can be positive as well at times.
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