When you know you're alone!

it was really late that other night....a couple of days back....proabably around 2 2:30 in the night.....i was walkin all alone...with this real cool breeze blowin my hair....tryin as if its gonna fill my soul.....i was walkin in the middle of this long straight street.....where i can see a long bunch of street lights as far as i my vision can dare....i was carryin my cell phone...n' all the time i was searchin for a number in the phone book...with whom i can talk.....but i could find no one....not that i didn't have a number stored......but could thought about no one with whom i could've talked with.......i sat in a bus stand.....lookin at the neon lights of a south indian restaurant.......n' really askin myself......is this how you feel...when you know that you're alone....that you've got no one with you.....n' you only look back with a hope that someone is right behind you....but can find no one.....that you're really sick of talkin with the walls in your house....coz you know walls don't talk back..but you only listen to the echoes of your own voice...remindin you of some all fond memories...but suddenly again you realize that you're alone in that house....longin long enough that someone's gonna hear you from one's heart....not because they've to hear you...but they really like to hear you.

i tried to lie down in that bus stop.....the breeze still catchin my head....i felt like i was high.....but not renewed!....i tried to look forward from now.....where i fit myself in....coz till now as i realized...i've got something....n' i also lost a few....but whats gonna be the picture like ...say after five years from now....coz the picture i've now with me to look at..isn't the best one to look at....coz empty frames don't look nice.....but whats the ultimate plan.....will my bed be a furniture where i'm gonna come only to sleep.......or will it be somethin else where i can relax......how's my life gonna be.....somethin like a slow swamp....where you only wait for your end to come...slowly but painfully!!!....or will it be somethin like where you really know that you're alive.....just when these thoughts were really reachin their orgasm!....the lights in the bus stop turned off......i had to get up from there.....the rain came in as if to fill the picture with a sense of perfectness.....n' the street dogs were really cryin in a loud manner.......as if they were my choir....n' i walked along slowly.....i guess thats exactly how you feel when you know that you're alone!

I walk a lonely road

The only one that I have ever known

Don't know where it goes

But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street

On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Where the city sleeps

and I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

'Til then I walk alone

I'm walking down the line

That divides me somewhere in my mind

On the border line

Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines

What's fucked up and everything's alright

Check my vital signs

To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

'Til then I walk alone

I walk this empty street

On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Where the city sleeps

And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

'Til then I walk alone... ------Green Day