it's hard for me to start....when all it's gonna do is end.

i could never explain that feelin to you...i never understood it myself...n' i didn't expect anyone else to do so either....i never believed in it till the point of occurrence...but it did happen...i know i wasn't changin but still...i wasn't the same...from nothin to everythin...i changed somehow even when i didn't...i spoke the truth in the lies....i saw the light in the dark.

i heard you in every whisperin willows....i saw you in every tango of the candle flame...i felt only you...in my paralysis...i thought of you...n' sometimes a void rushed in .....my desires to touch you...to hold you...to breathe the same scented air you did....to watch you through the residue of the moisture within my eyes.....n' that moment when everythin around was under the sheaths of mist....n' the only thing in focus was probably so unfocussed.

i felt like cryin n i wanted to laugh....n' there were those nights...too many nights...n' one single sleepless...i was never sure if i liked those stars with your name or the mornin sun....i was too bold n' was so scared as i knew....you'd go away...all the time...

to make sure none followed where you led
i used my hair to cover our tracks.
sun set on the island of our bed
night rose
eating ehoes
and we were beached there, in tangles of flicker,
candles whispering at our driftwood backs.
your eyes above me
afraid of the promises i might keep
regretting the truth we did say
less than the lie we didn't,
i went in deep, i went in deep,
to fight the past for you.
now we both know
sorrows are the seeds of loving.
now we both know i will live and
i will die for this love