'm listenin to my most favourite Bon Jovi track "These Days"..............."no one wants to be themselves these days!"......how true those lines are.....and infact most of his songs goes real "bull's eye" for me!....i do remember the time back in the hostel....all alone!...that was the time when i asked this question to me.....why do i've so less number of friends...........and the only
answer i had found at that moment was that i picked someone as a friend........like who i really wanna be.....i always've that want in my subconscious that if i could be like him....though i was told and taught.......that its not good to compare yourself with others......and i even tried to terminate this trait of mine.....but i guess somethings don't change....and yeah! if this is some place to confess your inner most self....i do confess that i always wanna play the guitar like ankur da did.....to be so planned and intelligent like navajit....all so fluent and "master of all" like monish....kind and carin like biju....and really at this point...i'm neither hesitant nor shy to confess that i really wanted to have those qualities within me.....and maybe even now.....and thats the mere criterion for me......and even today....when i talk with someone.........i don't actually see the person......rather i try to look at the potentiality and possibility of the reflection of mine in that person!
and after all these years......of quest and content.........tears and laughter...........dreams and realities!......when i sometimes look back at photos of myself......i still don't know whom i'm lookin at....i still don't know whether i finally acquired those stuffs within me.....but one thing i'm substantially certain that i've changed.....and realized it too that ........".....these nights have grown a little bit longer!"
but that strikes me with another question........am i the only one who's findin such a situation.......am i the only one who has a similar basis of friendship........because if there's someone else.......i really wanna ask....."......are you still within yourself........or you too have lost
yourself?".......i wish if someone else with somethin similar is readin this then just give me sign!
oh god! this song really scratches my soul.......
"These days - the stars hang out of reach....
But these days - there ain't no ladder on the streets!
These days - are fast, love don't last...in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the midnight train!
And there ain't nobody left but us these days..."
answer i had found at that moment was that i picked someone as a friend........like who i really wanna be.....i always've that want in my subconscious that if i could be like him....though i was told and taught.......that its not good to compare yourself with others......and i even tried to terminate this trait of mine.....but i guess somethings don't change....and yeah! if this is some place to confess your inner most self....i do confess that i always wanna play the guitar like ankur da did.....to be so planned and intelligent like navajit....all so fluent and "master of all" like monish....kind and carin like biju....and really at this point...i'm neither hesitant nor shy to confess that i really wanted to have those qualities within me.....and maybe even now.....and thats the mere criterion for me......and even today....when i talk with someone.........i don't actually see the person......rather i try to look at the potentiality and possibility of the reflection of mine in that person!
and after all these years......of quest and content.........tears and laughter...........dreams and realities!......when i sometimes look back at photos of myself......i still don't know whom i'm lookin at....i still don't know whether i finally acquired those stuffs within me.....but one thing i'm substantially certain that i've changed.....and realized it too that ........".....these nights have grown a little bit longer!"
but that strikes me with another question........am i the only one who's findin such a situation.......am i the only one who has a similar basis of friendship........because if there's someone else.......i really wanna ask....."......are you still within yourself........or you too have lost
yourself?".......i wish if someone else with somethin similar is readin this then just give me sign!
oh god! this song really scratches my soul.......
"These days - the stars hang out of reach....
But these days - there ain't no ladder on the streets!
These days - are fast, love don't last...in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the midnight train!
And there ain't nobody left but us these days..."
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