Tuesday, February 07, 2006

if everythin else was replaceable...


no i’m not at all disppointed... infact i acknowledge your act n’ also appreciate it.... i mean these are the days of compromises.... n’ everything that’s bein done is actually done in compulsion far from the borders of perfection... for there ain’t no passion in doin it.... how can it be in the perfect way.... but you’re different... you’re way too different.... for you did it so elegantly n’ perfectly..... here’s a round of applause.... infact a standin ovation to you.... if only i knew you.... i could have told you all in first person format.... but like i said.... these’re the days of compromises..... but you still make me wonder.......... i was awake till 5 in the mornin.... yeah it was a pretty long day n’ i went to sleep as soon as my head reached my pillow...... i actually read a few sms’s before goin to sleep......... my room mate was there too...ok he was asleep but he was definitely not dead..... n’ just like a stream of wind..........you came in quietly.... like the perfect ghost.....was it a full moon?....i don’t know....but it was definitely the sunday mornin..... n’ all you did is took away my phone.... you didn’t even bother to touch my cd player that was lyin right there.... you know i’m partly happy for my cd player wasn’t stolen..... but partly confused..... you who’s so perfect in your work...probably knew about values more than i do......i mean the values that dealt with the “green” stuff..... then why did you actually leave the player..... infact i’m not likin its sound as i used to like once..... somethin is botherin me way too deep..... “the cd player that was not even considered as a part of robbery!”

n’ your last words went away with the phone as well.... i’m not too sure if i’m doin justice with my emotions..... i’m not too sure if i’m feelin sad for that..... i thought i should be feelin sad..... but honestly i’m not..... am i doin somethin wrong? why ain’t i sad?.... i thought i’d always keep them alive..... then what’s actually happenin... am i cheatin on you?

       
though i replaced that phone with a better one, i’m pretty sure of.... i’m not too sure if everythin else is replaceable..... or rather should i say.... if most of the other things are replaceable as well...
       


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9 Comments:

: M : said...

gah!!! i've changed my phone every year for the past 3 years...

desperado said...

finally heard frm u..
where were u all these days

Anonymous said...

n' i've changed my soul every year for the last 6 years... but fear of losin my soul still persists...

Anonymous said...

where were u all these days
...in n' out of hell...they told me... i was "unacceptable"!!!

Dreamcatcher said...

kiddo i never got to know how and why and who did the magical task of convincing you.
nice nontheless that you have returned :)

: M : said...

i dont believe in souls. ergo i dont worry about losing or reclaiming it.

Anonymous said...

woman i never got to know how and why and who did the magical task of convincing you to rollback your profile pic. nice nontheless that you still carry the same charm! :)

p.s. something's wrong... isn't it??

Anonymous said...

n' my sets of belief don't rely on perceptions that only deal with physical domain... for there's a whole long list of stuffs which i like doin... but can never prove why i like 'em... or never can assign a unit that will direct its magnitude... but i still "believe" i love 'em... n' sometimes i "believe" i love 'em more...

p.s. n' i feel i "believe" somethin more... that once i lose all those "worries" of losin... the charm of all my victories will fade away right at that very moment... i "believe" everythin for me loses its completeness once those "worries" go away....

Anonymous said...

p.s.

anyway... i'm sorry... i wasn't tryin to copy you! but nobody actually convinced me... or maybe someone did... i don't know... but lets keep it simple... i was too worried to face myself... for i was beginnin to realize that i was still the same old loser... it was really tough for me... so i was tryin to run away... don't know where...don't know from whom.... just for a moment felt like Forrest Gump..i just felt like runnin!... n' so i did... but sooner or later... i realized that no point in runnin... for then i realized it's okay to be a loser... i mean it's not that bad...or is it?... n' now it doesn't bother me much to face myself everyday when i look into the mirror... i've accepted who i'm.... no matter how bad in shape... i feel i still love who i'm...