dear what happened

sometimes..... you know just sometimes... i actually do think about you... not because you're just someone who's all very mine...but as an outsider. n' that doesn't do me any good...... when i get to see you've just a few gold n' silver to achieve..... money to earn when there's be no one to spend on..... maybe fame to gain.... when there's no one to boast on..... stories to tell...... when there's no one to hear it... n' ofcourse there's you too....... not a part of anyone else's.
sometimes i just think... "what's you gonna do?"... i know this is supposed to be my responsibility... but still... do you've some clues? i guess it'd have been all so fun... if you were part of atleast somethin'.... but even when you're not.. i just can't throw you away... i only wished if i could have offered you just more than these words hopin' that you can lean on them just like i do... i wished if you were not shown the way to the door for so many times... i wished you didn't have to be there where you have been so many times... i only wished if things were different... n' then they'd have stayed just the same...

wishfully yours,
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