i guess i know somethin...

that sometimes 24 hours is way too much for a day....for just few hours ago....when i finally got this laptop after a few days....i thought i'd blog....about the day...when i do so...i actually recall back the whole day....capturin all the details...that maybe are very unimportant....but i do it...for i don't trust my memory much...n' readin it after a while makes me happy.......n' someway or the other...i always end up writin about those small things...which i always rate very high......tonight i was thinkin of writin about the bike ride on this sunday night....ride on the deserted roads.....the tarrot card reader...the pretty tarrot card reader!...standin all alone......me actually thinkin if i see her again standin on the same point as she was then when i made the first pass....while i was on my way back.....she'd be definitely single...for it was late..for everyone not single won't stay at that point in the night all alone.....for it'd take me a while to come back to that point...for it was a complete stupid logic that hold no reason at all....for it was me who actually formulated that logic....that somehow didn't sound good..but felt good...like always!!!!...me comin back......and probably anti-murphy struck...she was standin at the same location...i was pretty sure even about the co-ordinates.....n' i actually shouted out..not in a loud manner...but still...can be rated as a nano shout..."yesssssss"...i don't know why i did that...for i'd probably never ever see her again....n' even if i do....i won't do anythin...but probably a sudden rush....whatever....

n' that was all i was about to write....in a more narrative..third person get-up....in a longer version...but i'd have....for that's all that actually happened in the whole day..that's incidentally genuine (**incidentally genuine??? what kind of phrase is that???**)..n' someway or the other...i wasn't too happy with the subject...for i don't really rate somethin like this to be written off....n' god bless the cell phone.....it buzzed........n' it'll be safe enough to say this...."i had the best conversation in my last 24 years ...over phone!"...n' i don't really care what sort of reaction or equations that person form when this whole thing is published......but i've to write it here...for this is somethin i'm always gonna treasure...why not!...the aunty at the store...when she told me that she brought "fruit n' nuts" just for me before the scheduled time...just because i asked her about it....4 times a day......i treasured that statement in my great box...this is way too too too big ......i've to treasure it..i ain't got no choice.

i can't even make statements that i like librans a lot..for it won't sound that nice when i say so....but i do.....n' when both of 'em talk when the balance is completely stable....i mean they rock!!!!..the best sound i ever heard...when logic collides with one another.........when difference of opinions are actually shown so much of respect.......expressions never really dwelled with librans...for they're somewhat bad in it.....specially the males......it's not that they don't wanna do it....but it's just that they can't.....but the fact still remains......two librans can actually express.....when they're left alone...probably all the theoretical findings are probably axiomatized today!!!....if only librans can always express.......but that theory also proclaims....two librans can never stay together for long...somethin that's really bitin me a lot right now....for that theory is already in the paper..i can't change it...but whatever.......what stays forever?

but i guess it's one of the rarest of occassions when librans actually talk about 'em selves....n' when they do..it sounds a bit funny..for it has to....it's unusual...but like always..it's way too different........for what they say is absolute truth (**that sounded so divine..bullshit!!**)no fancy words...no wrappers to make things look better.

i've already told you this before...that you're very good....n' i also wrote this..i say this but i can't explain this..for i can only feel this...but probably this is because of the intelligience factor that we both can touch.......i'm not sayin our intelligience is way above normal....but talkin about co-ordination of that intelligience.......when you someway try n' visualize the other person's images....n' we actually do it...for i rate it high...for both of us actually understand somethin..maybe we understand us.......but we can't explain what we understand.......i rate that helplessness within me to explain somethin but failin like always... as high......n' i rate that ability in you to understand that helplessness in me to explain n' failin...as even higher...........i said a lot of things about you in that mail...probably i was all over the place...probably that's why you got a different picture...for probably your reply was even more out of place!!!!!!... but i even rate that inability in both of us to actually present n' understand.... but i actually admire the logic...that somehow i can relate to ...with mine......i adore those explanations that took refuge in the grounds of reason..no matter how unreasonable they're.....i adore those confessions we both can make..when we reach a time...when we don't have to think what impact those confessions will create.....for that's what librans always think....what impact will one confession can create.....probably readin all the possible permutations..they're actually ready for one!!!!....but i never thought there would be such a rare night when librans can make confessions without carin about those impacts...not because they don't wanna care...or they've had enough....but somehow they tend to believe....the other person can see beyond those confessions.

but somethin which actually bother me so often....perfect things don't last long...but somehow i'm gainin this belief...that somethin might......the fact that i wanna see you happy will last long......the fact that i actually wanna tear you into pieces when you say "break up" in the future tense will last long....the fact that i don't want you to go through all those bad times will last long......

i say i treasure these moments for i found you real close in 'em......i say i treasure these moments for i feel it's always good to know somethin.....i say some equations are way too perfect...that tryin to balance 'em will actually destroy the equillibrium.....n' i still say...you're way too cute!

Confessions Of An Idiotic Mind!!!

i'm havin shadows of regrets that the "k" theory won't work on you!!!!!!..i wish it had a corollary!!!

p.s. i end this post not with a fullstop but with a smile
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