what happened just now?...did i really speak so much or was i dreamin?......but it worked.....no one's leavin me now....after a long time...somethin is happenin like i want it to be...no one's leavin me now.
yes i was assertive sometime maybe....but couldn't quite remember when i became this fugitive....don't even know from whom i runnin away...or hidin from.....where freedom is so costly...feels like you've to earn it every now n' then....but not quite sure when n' where you're gonna lose it again.....when you pretend to be happy every now n' then...just with this hope that at one point..you couldn't quite differentiate the boundaries between realities n' "un"realities...but just like the freedom of the moment works for a fugitive...happiness in the falsehood starts to work for me as well....n' i guess there's nothin "wrong" in it.
i was fed quite a heavy dose tonight....heavy dose of practicality!...n' i just kept on listenin...for i felt i was fed with raw truth...which is always bitter........"move on with the crowd....do what they're doin...n' once you're sure you're not gonna fall anymore...try n' identify yourself to differentiate yourself from the crowd".....which meant be a convenient fluctuator between your ethics n' profits....choose 'em in a manner so that you earn the latter!...the one i feel bein a cheater is actually being termed as flexibility....n' they're the ones who walk ahead.....people like me don't even come into this big wide picture...forget about leadin or laggin!
n' true...but we all make choices...don't we?...all our lives...we make choices....n' those choices are actually our identities....the rules that we make reflect in those choices......i made a few...they've consequences....the ones that i was already aware of even before i made those choices....n' this was what the choice was...i'd rather lose than to accept the victory by breakin all my rules......i'd rather walk alone in a lonely highway...but will never blindly follow a lost crowd.....i'd rather be called a "rigid" one n' be who i'm.....for still i believe n' i don't know why...it's better to know who you're...than to try n' be someone you want to be...for even if you be what you wanted to be....you're quite not sure who you'll end up with....atleast now..i'm who i'm...not someone else...i may lose now...but i may also win!...i'll keep my faith tonight...n' tomorrow...i can't even see!
yes i was assertive sometime maybe....but couldn't quite remember when i became this fugitive....don't even know from whom i runnin away...or hidin from.....where freedom is so costly...feels like you've to earn it every now n' then....but not quite sure when n' where you're gonna lose it again.....when you pretend to be happy every now n' then...just with this hope that at one point..you couldn't quite differentiate the boundaries between realities n' "un"realities...but just like the freedom of the moment works for a fugitive...happiness in the falsehood starts to work for me as well....n' i guess there's nothin "wrong" in it.
i was fed quite a heavy dose tonight....heavy dose of practicality!...n' i just kept on listenin...for i felt i was fed with raw truth...which is always bitter........"move on with the crowd....do what they're doin...n' once you're sure you're not gonna fall anymore...try n' identify yourself to differentiate yourself from the crowd".....which meant be a convenient fluctuator between your ethics n' profits....choose 'em in a manner so that you earn the latter!...the one i feel bein a cheater is actually being termed as flexibility....n' they're the ones who walk ahead.....people like me don't even come into this big wide picture...forget about leadin or laggin!
n' true...but we all make choices...don't we?...all our lives...we make choices....n' those choices are actually our identities....the rules that we make reflect in those choices......i made a few...they've consequences....the ones that i was already aware of even before i made those choices....n' this was what the choice was...i'd rather lose than to accept the victory by breakin all my rules......i'd rather walk alone in a lonely highway...but will never blindly follow a lost crowd.....i'd rather be called a "rigid" one n' be who i'm.....for still i believe n' i don't know why...it's better to know who you're...than to try n' be someone you want to be...for even if you be what you wanted to be....you're quite not sure who you'll end up with....atleast now..i'm who i'm...not someone else...i may lose now...but i may also win!...i'll keep my faith tonight...n' tomorrow...i can't even see!
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gud to see u r celebratin...
in all the excitement of u comin back i had completely forgotten the attachement u sent me...:)
keep your faith...
n again i say why worry about the end.. this time is good enough
@dhruv -->> ..
hmm...so you finally read those signs dumbo!!!...then also read the rules....don't let anyone in with you...for i can see who reads me...even if they don't comment...n' if you don't believe me...it'll be a big mistake!!!!
p.s. it's good to have you back!
dhruv -->> ..
oh my god...from 10:14 to 12:14....two hours....you played with my pages for 2 hours...you're mad!!!!
ye sir ill obey the rules..n i did not play wiht ur pages i read them :)
@dhruv -->> ..
it's only an expression i used when i said "played with my pages"....dumbo!!
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