what do i do now?

what do i do now?...i don't wanna lose my hopes...but i can't do what i want....i'm once again lost here....even my name is lost from the lost n' found....why people abandon me?....why do they come to me if they've to abandon me?

how long am i gonna pretend with this smilin face?....for as the night grows darker....these smiles sink faster....i'm glad some pains still linger inside of me...atleast i don't feel completely alone....but "almost" alone....but what do i do now?....when i know the directions but i'm completely lost....what do i do now?...when i carry those footsteps with me....but there's no way back.

i love my shadow....yeah i'm sure i do...for it always stays with me...but just for a while i thought about you my shadow...do you like me...or you've started hatin me as well?..for you've to stay with me!...always....i couldn't even say ...."ok go away...it's ok!"...but believe me...i would if i could.

why people more often don't think how they talk?....what they say?....how people can feel what they say or do?....how "i" feel?...they don't...but why so often?......how can they say so much in one simple sentence....when i've always spent so many years without sayin much!

sick of dreamin of a better tomorrow....when i know these "todays" are gonna stay "almost" the same....n' only those "yesterdays" are mine.

p.s. i kept on tryin to be a winner...but then i realized... maybe... failure is my style!